Lost in my OWN mind

Sunday, June 07, 2009

Writing and Spiritual Life

Tangents

Non-sensical

gibberish

run-ons

Disclaimer to myself: The more you write the better! Vent baby vent, Soon I will be poetic, flow like a rapper not really, and yada yada...as for now...I don't care...

thanks...awesome...great...stellar...rad.

Kiss my

ciao

for these things i am a dumb ass

Honestly is good, truth is getting hard for many, but me ha oh me i say I now am too honest (my mom told me this) and the truth is written on my back...yes i run in cirlces to see it! One at least I am looking, two it is so close I can sometimes see a reflection (wink) and three I really don't care what you think!

tangents.... why i am a dumb ass

1. I do hang out with people I do not like: and you are as good as the company you keep.

2. I tried to get fired from my job by not showing up...didn't work but really...dumb ass

3. Being tired does not make it ok to "accidently" miss mass...I am messing with GOD...what the what the what the...

4. The last few years i put work over all: family, my Saviour, life in general, school and of course I had to "rest" on the weekends!

*** I suppose we all have our issues, problems, vices, little devils that dance on our shoulder, but I still hide behind a person I made up...me. To everyone I know now and am constant contact with I am a tough chica, who works too much, can kick your ass (but retired from this) great friend to shit on, can dance and please invite to the party so she can entertain us, but if we are bored we will talk about her like we know her....i am flicking them off and mysef....

prudence
temperance
fortitude

I already want to be a vigilanty

I am intelligent, an athlete, practicing Catholic (saint in traing...that is for you nana), good to my parents, my siblings, good friend, and I am worth it to be happy....

No one is in my way, but my dumb ass!

therefore why hangout with more of them...reasons ladies and gentleman...simple

lonely
bored
action
maybe I will meet that one...hmmmmm ahhh probably not but
the what ifs ...i wasn't there that guy would be dead
old friends
celebrations...

believe-a-me I have slowed down, don't do stupid shit as much, never drive, never sleep with a random piece of meat....but i am my own road block...daily rosaries help, and I do not want something big and bad to happen...i want to get out of my mind...i am not doing bad, but i want the everything else to be the illusion while God is center...Lord I can do it, already know i got your help...but but but...

ciao

God is Great Beer is Good and People are Crazy

Good People are becoming scarce.

Good friends are rare and far between!

Good Friends that are of the same sex are even rarer for Women!

My good women friends are in other states.

Not only have I lost touch with them, I am losing myself with the idiots I surround myself with: lushes, sluts, rude, and not good people.

Once I have that "moment" with a friend, male or female, the moment where one thinks, "this person rocks and i could maybe learn to trust them!" Shit just roles down hill from there....

My pattern: a lot of people "know" me or of me
think we are buddies
i hang out
rude
sluts
lushes
selfish
i then drop them!

The funny thing is my good male friends were and are ex's, or want to be future ex's, but decent and good.

Forgot one: THEY LOVE GOSSIP, REALLY REALLY, SELFISH PEOPLE!

Now I strive to for the fun-lovin...making my time for laughs, but not real laughs, those that will fill a lonely void of true friends. Every woman needs a friend...maybe i should move...

God is Great

Beer is Good, and

People are Crazy....on the crazy note...i am a little exhausted of Playing the part of the tough girl, i will always be loud because I played defense in soccer all my life, but seriously to you sluts, selfish, rude, lushes and gossips...sit and spin, get a life and quit pretending to be some one's friend....

ciao

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

It is

This note, to me, shall be short...

one and only one reads me blog and that is me

so it is going to be me piece of mind to clamour, vent and make smiles

it is