Dilema

Not my beautiful old cat...who was like a dog...therefore I loved it!

So one has a friend who is marrying someone who she cares for but not fully loves...getting married in the Catholic Church...but not only does this man's entire family does not believe in confession they will receive Christ, but the relationship is doomed...

Who knows maybe a mircacle will happen...but i KNOW she will not be happy and he will treat her like a damn bitch and use the word verbally.... how the hell am i suppossed to sit aside this couple on the alter and approve of this...

it makes me sick...but do i lose my friend for a long time or forever... Trying to pull my best friends wedding but the guy i am fighting for is Christ...and the marriage not to exist...ahhhh poop!

There is Love

I can see it...just not yet believe it.  My recent history was honest...brought out the honesty in others that was not disappointing but in a way discouraging.  The other..i think was glad i was upfront but more him finding his true love and what he offered was not what i was ready for...meaning he had a family and do not think he was yet an honest man with himself.  Then again the other was not ready...just learning his life to live...and another confused... me no se!

Everyone one says never look for love or men but i am but keep a wary eye.  I will be direct but true.  Try to not overbear but learn to know what i can do.   I will keep asking and questioning and trying to discover but i do not know who to share it with...friends HA...they are nuns and to God i always do and his family... but i try to avoid the talks try to avoid what i will find....realize...failures and accomplishments. 

Remembering and forgetting...sometimes i have no choice.

With the Grace of God and if i try to help myself..i will and will will it!

Prayers...for at least a glimpse of happiness!  One is a fact i am shy in front of God and happy with my family no matter who or what they do!  Love is Love and Is as is God himself!

Kiss on a forehead would be lovely and not soley from my saviour or my angels...my love and hopefully awaiting in the fless...

aye there's the rub!!!