the inner demon

I do not like my inner demon
i hate him so
i pray and pray for him to go away
but sometimes i do not honestly mean it,
so...
This scares me though
Tears come when good surrounds me
and worthy am i, not

i run and play away from good,

the true good that is meant as food

for my mind and soul.

This is strong and makes me kringe
what i used like and what i need
to what is right and what should be my creed
Is gone or
at least seems lost to me.
I do not like my inner demon
I justly hate him so
why can't he be erased?
straight, i cannot think with him near my soul
In your Name oh Lord
Kill him that makes me ill.
my mind is poisoned ever much,
that i fear to think
i fear to be alone,
the dark
and not only do not i feel but
but fear to feel!
To hell with you, my inner demon
Just let me go.

-anonymous